I spent a good bit of my morning reading, praying and worshiping on the roof. It was wonderful; thanks for asking. I need those days when I spend about two hours in the word, prayer, and just hanging out with God. I tend to be the type of person who gets entirely too overwhelmed with my infinitely long to-do list; which, unfortunately results in me independently trying to do things for God without connecting with Him on a deep level and including Him in my plans for the day. Erps…
This morning was so good. I read a bit in Malachi 3:6-7 and Psalms and was just reminded of the nearness of God and His faithfulness to us. It’s bittersweet seeing His faithfulness. It’s amazing how good and constant He is with us, but it really stinks seeing how I fall short in that area daily. I was reminded this morning that He is the God of love, grace, and mercy. I can come to Him with my hands full of my lingering responsibilities, things I’m trying to maintain control of, family concerns, etc. and lay it all down at His feet. He delights in that! And then I can just sit and be real with Him, and then He wants to walk through everything with me. What beautiful surrender.
So to end, I’m still (as always) learning. I feel like I learn the same lessons over and over again, just different situations in which to apply them. Okay lesson learned today: I’m not created to be independent; that’s my sin showing. Sorry Kelly Clarkson, I won’t be singing Miss Independent with you in my car, full blast with the windows rolled down anymore.
Lesson #2: God is faithful, good and trustworthy. Therefore we can bring everything to Him and lay it down at His feet knowing that His plans, ideas, and guidance are much better than ours ever could be. It’s scary. I know, I’m the most stubborn, headstrong person I know. A few months ago, I was genuinely convinced I knew everything about everything and my ideas were always best and right (ask my STINT team. Lord bless them). Turns out, omnipotent is not a word that defines me. Who would have thought?
So final thoughts, God has encouraged me this morning by showing He is good. He is worthy of all praise and worthy of worship:
My heart is steadfast, O God,
my heart is steadfast!
I will sing and make melody!
8 Awake, my glory!
Awake, O harp and lyre!
I will awake the dawn!
9 I will give thanks to you, O Lord, among the peoples;
I will sing praises to you among the nations.
10 For your steadfast love is great to the heavens,
your faithfulness to the clouds.
11 Be exalted, O God, above the heavens!
Let your glory be over all the earth!